OH HELLO :)
Everyone that knows me clearly know i suck at the starting point. Especially, when i haven’t been blogging for ages now. I haven’t been doing anything, lately, really. I wouldn’t call myself busy. Najua? Busy? Thats a lie. And I’ve used it as excuse to most of the people that annoys me to the max. No offence, But i just hate getting annoyed when my mood is all mixed up with some certain complicated things. Y’know?
And No, this is not a blog of complaining about life. I used to do that alot on my last blog. And not this time, Not this year. I want everything to change. and starting from now, I will work my ass off in order to achieve my not-so-successful-ish dream. And yes Humans, i crap alot more than you know it.
okay let’s move on, Hi I’m Najua * drum-rolls. Well I’m 15 this year. I used to pretend i’m much older when i was younger. I wouldn’t call it lying about my age. I just don’t tell my real age back then cause i was too scared that people would judge me. But i stopped doing it years ago, And it hits me. Its like, what the hell, if they can’t accept me according to my age, they mightaswell dont deserve me as a friend. no? yes? No? mhm.
So let the past flies by, I might be 15, but theres alot of things that i’ve experienced. I’m talking about life experiences. The good ones and Bad ones. I wouldn’t call myself a badass. But A rebel, on the high-level i’d say. Im trying so hard to try all the things that my friends around have tried. just to fit in. just to feel the heat of it. just to increase my life experience. And yes, I’m A virgin people. And it’ll stay that way until marriage.
Speaking of boys, Well ofcourse theres always been crushes, young love, and you know, those kinda normal teenage things. But im telling you, I’ve never really fell in love before. Not real one. Ofcourse I’ve said “I love you” to few guys before. But I don’t mean it. I mean, thats what teenagers said when they’re a couple. And so.. Im not looking for any type of relationship in anyway. I’ve had enough of it.
But when the time comes, I’m sure i’ll find myself a decent guy that could change myself in just a blink of an eye. Okay, thats a tad bit too corny, No?
I live in a house with beautiful family. I’d say I’m lucky eventhough i can’t stop complaining. But on the second thoughts, Look at the poor beggars around Indonesia. It touches my heart just staring at them. and made me feel so special. its like comparing their lifestyle and my lifestyle. It’s just so different in so many ways. I just felt so lucky just thinking about it. and everytime i started to complain, the only way to erase the bratty attitude is to imagine how sad their life is and appreciate abit.
Before my blog gets more deeper than ever, I should be logging off by now. So, most probably, I’ll be writing alot more about my thoughts. If you think its pathetic or annoying, You’re allowed to leave and never come back. If its the opposite way, Do stay tuned for more. :) I don’t write for people to read, but i write cause it excites me just writing about my thoughts than keeping it inside.
xoxo, Najua.
